是冥冥中的两只蝴蝶，注定了相爱，却注定越不过彼此的距离。

情深似海，海却无情。

只能相互远望，却永远牵不到手。
    然而朋友却不以为然，推荐我去看赵玫的唐朝女子三部曲，重点推荐《高阳公主》。说虽然未必符合真相，但也能对唐朝那些历史浪尖上女子的生活窥见一斑。


    虽然身在异国买不到什么好书，好在现在的网络几乎无所不包！ 找到了这本对高阳作出了不同注解的长篇。

    历史上对这位美若天仙，雍容华贵却又离经叛道的公主只有短短数行的记载：
   《新唐书 列传第八 诸帝公主》
　　合浦公主，始封高阳。下嫁房玄龄子遗爱。主，帝所爱，故礼异它婿。主负所爱而骄。房遗直以嫡当拜银青光禄大夫，让弟遗爱，帝不许。玄龄卒，主导遗爱异赀，既而反谮之，遗直自言，帝痛让主，乃免。自是稍疏外，主怏怏。会御史劾盗，得浮屠辩机金宝神枕，自言主所赐。初，浮屠庐主之封地，会主与遗爱猎，见而悦之，具帐其庐，与之乱，更以二女子从遗爱，私饷亿计。至是，浮屠殊死，杀奴婢十余。主益望，帝崩无哀容。又浮屠智勖迎占祸福，惠弘能视鬼，道士李晃高医，皆私侍主。主使掖廷令陈玄运伺宫省禨祥，步星次。永徽中，与遗爱谋反，赐死。显庆时追赠。


    而隐藏在这聊聊数语之后又有多少或瑰丽或肮脏的真相淹没在市井街头，流失在冥冥岁月里。


   开始读这篇公主传记，逐渐转变着对那段历史的态度，从厌恶到怀疑，到忖度，到淡淡的喜欢。原来她也是那样一个敢于追求爱与自由，那样一个会被优秀的男子所吸引的妙龄女子啊。与步非烟，红拂女甚至卓文君都是同一类人。只不过不幸并没有嫁给自己心中的司马相如，而身在帝王家的优越感和从小的倍受宠爱又让她不甘心做一个默默忍受的深闺怨妇。

   爱情有错么？如果没有的话，那么错的又是谁呢？






  

用两个字来总结一个月以来的生活，那就是：“好累。”

小超也直接跟我说：天呀，懒死你算了！

 从早到晚就是觉得没有精神。做什么事情都觉得没有力气。每天睡觉10个小时还是觉得很困，即使是上午也没有精神振奋的感觉。

实验，报告，讲义都觉得是在梦游一般，虚无而疲惫。记得大学时代曾经一度每天只睡四个小时，整天除了上课还要参加活动，完成作业，还要一面准备出国考试，读各式各样的书。当时虽然也觉得辛苦，但是做起事情来还是生气勃发，激情无限的。可怎么越发到了现在反倒一派暮秋之气，全然没有活力。难道我竟是这样迅速地衰老了？亦或是这个相对更自由更能自给自足的生活状态已经在我察觉以前吞噬了我的斗志？

有时真的想沉睡个一百年算了。 哎，我怎么变得这么颓废了呢！！！

谁能给我一剂强心针呢？

Both EPFL and Switzerland have given us memorable impression. There was so much surprising experience. Besides the amazing beauty of Alps, the unique food fondue, the wonderful wine, I would like to summarize our experience into the following aspects.

The most consequent point is that staffs of EPFL are pursuing excellence and high efficiency in research.

Although we spent only few days there, we got the chance to visit several laboratories either in a group or by individual. From the speeches and the explanations given by experts in the lab, we had a brief glimpse on their achievements. I have to say that they really did perfect and advanced work! They also made a point of transferring their research result to industry.

They have the latest high technique equipments and using them effectively and efficiently. Some of the instruments are even designed and assembled by the students themselves. One of the very good examples of the high effectivity of the whole department is the founding of the Interdisciplinary Centre for Electron Microscopy (ICEM). As we know, generally the budget of each lab has time and amount limitation. So it is rather difficult to purchase expensive instrument in an individual lab, especially which is not used very often. But sometimes special test is needed to confirm the property of materials. In the department of material science of EPFL, they established interdisciplinary centre, so that the most update equipment can be used by all the members, for free. I believe this is a nice mode of cooperation among laboratories.

Their working style is another instance of high efficency. From the communication with doctor candidates of EPFL, I knew that in contrast with Asian style, instead of working long hours even on weekends and holidays, people in EPFL would rather concentrate themselves on the 45 hours of weekdays. One of the EPFL students told me directly:”Frankly speaking, it is totally no need to work extremely long hours. Asians are aging rather than working when they suppose they are working hard.” At that moment, I flushed immediately and felt quite uneasy about that. Nevertheless, when I think about his word again and again, I admired that he told the truth. For that reason, I aimed to become a student not only willing to work hard, but also with high efficiency.

Another important conception I obtain from this trip is the independence and active of students.

I think students in EPFL are of great creative and activity. They did god job in academic study and also performed well in other field. I asked myself invariably why they could manage to keep good balance between study and their interest. Although I have not figure out the real reason, I think the experience during the trip might give me some hint.

I think students of EPFL have more freedom. Their own attitude plays important role in their life. For example, they decide their career path and marriage all by themselves. On the campus, they are free to enjoy alcohols in cafeteria or even to smoke in classrooms. Maybe it’s not always good, but what I want to emphasis is the spirit of liberty.

By attending lectures there, I found out that students are highly encouraged to ask questions and to express their own opinions. Prof. Setter also told me only if we were able to ask questions, we are really thinking and understanding. So I would like to say, one of the learning skill is to become active in study. It pays to raise questions, search for answers and generate independent viewpoints. Just as the saying goes:”Without motivation there can hardly be innovation.” I suppose one of the vital shortcomings of Asian students is that we do not have our own opinion towards issues. We just follow others.